Monday, October 29, 2012

Back again

I want to blog again. Not that I didn't want to blog when I took my super long break, but I miss writing things out and oversharing with strangers. So, to catch up, here is my life since my last real post. Well, since I had babyjoe.
I had a super rough time right after having him. I had the baby blues BAD. It lasted much longer than normal baby blues, to the point where I had my doctor give me a psych referral and I was constantly questioning my sanity. I thought I was never going to be happy again. Much of this stemmed from my failure at breastfeeding, which came from inadequate help. Since I wasn't planning on being so out of it after having Orion, I didn't have a solid plan for how I would tackle trouble with breastfeeding. My pediatrician saw us a week out of the hospital and Orion had lost way more weight than he was supposed to and they gave him formula right there in the office. I didn't even have the presence of mind to ask for help breastfeeding first and Mr. Joe had no experience in any of this so that was pretty much the beginning of the end of breastfeeding.
To say I was disappointed is an understatement. To top it all off, I felt incredibly guilty that I was so miserable when I knew so many girls who wanted what I had so badly. It was a hard road to travel for a few weeks. Slowly, I started feeling normal, until one day, Mr. Joe and I were just joking around together and he said, "I'm so glad crazy Jenny is gone!" We now refer to that time as "crazy jenny".
I'm stopping for now, as I'm on my phone and typing a post with my thumb sucks. Is anyone still out there?

1 comment:

Kelli said...

I'm so glad you are back!! I've been wondering about you and am really glad to see a picture of your little man. He's adorable!! Keep 'em comin'!!